You Don’t Have to Be Skinny To Dip a Toe in the Pond of Liberation
We went skinny dipping the other night. I am 37 and have never done that before; I have never felt comfortable enough in my own skin. It is a lot curvier and a bit more wobbly than it use to be, (my skin) but I love it!
I also love exercise, I exercise to feel strong not to be skinny, skinny and I have never met. Skinny is that illusive friend that others seem to find occasionally. Her and I are not destined to be acquainted in this life. However liberation is a one size fits all. This experience was not about my body but about my soul. It was about liberation.
It had been a hot muggy Melbourne day. After a few drinks we wondered down to the beach, barefoot. Some of the girls I was with had the foresight to have their bathers already on. As everyone undressed revealing their bikinis, I felt lost. Damn I hate being the Pom in Aus, the one that doesn’t know the secret code, the norm, the thing to do. No-one else cares, just me.
‘Just strip down to your undies’ a lovely friend suggested
I didn’t want to be in cold wet undies for hours afterwards though. We were all merry and at that point in the night when you think it will last forever.
It was dark, the cool water beckoning me in, only the light from the beach hut illuminating a small patch of sand in front of it. So I slipped off my dress and folded it, (it’s funny what you do in company that you wouldn’t do alone). Then I kept my eyes on the horizon and slipped off my bra. It felt so liberating! I stood there watching the water feeling the cool sea air on my skin, I was in no hurry. I slipped off my knickers and started to walk into the water. It felt fantastic. I didn’t notice any eyes on me, why would I? Everyone was in their own little heaven of cool water and starry skies.
I lay back and floated, the stars were beautiful and the sea was calming. There are so many ways to feel liberated and writing is definitely my number one. Baring my soul through words, not that different from skinny dipping really!
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