Well this is an old post and I honestly can’t remember if at the time I published something similar however I’m pleased to say my faith was rewarded. We must go skating more often!
Skate Night
Skate night often turns into truth night in our house as we rush to get there after school, the conversation in the back of the car is an unloading of the day’s events, achievements and disappointments.
‘I think I will try to have lower expectations of other people’ My son exclaimed as the sunshine and showers followed us along the highway.
‘Ha! You have no idea my boy’ this was all I could muster after a difficult week, dealing with divorce, lawyers and colliding morals and ethics.
‘No!’ My beautiful wide eyed daughter answered ‘you have to believe in people!’
‘You certainly need to have high expectations of yourself’ I chipped in.
My children’s conversation echoed my thoughts after nearly two years of trying to find a way for the three of us to stay in our family home.
‘You just simply can’t afford this house!’
‘If I divorce my wife certainly wouldn’t get the house all she’s done is look after the kids’ – this was a potential financial advisor that wanted my custom!!
‘Go and get a proper job’ – No I don’t want to be gone from my children for 10 hours a day!
Over this time it has been hard not to lose faith in a world that seems to have lost faith in me.
Truth Night
My determination to stay in our home is not a selfish whim but simply after five moves in five years I believe my children deserve to have a family home and I know that I have worked hard to try to achieve this. This is why I have Airbnb’d the place, why I sit most evenings on the sofa with my kids, my laptop next to me working hard to send my hourly invoices out.
Faith
Soon I will know my fate. I believe I will stay in this house with my children because I have faith in my own ability to do so, I will not change my faith and belief in humanity even when positive reinforcement seems a far cry from my immediate needs, I will also continue my writing and share success spiritually, psychologically and physically with my wonderful writing friends because that is why I’ve changed my life so that I can smile at the world even when they are frowning at me!
